What makes you afraid?
When I was younger the movie Poltergeist freaked me out. Hell, who am I kidding, it still gives me the creeps when the clown disappears from the chair. It spoke to the fears that I had at the time:
Ghosts.
Possessed dolls.
Haunted closets.
Intangible fears.
It was based on stuff I saw on a screen happening to someone else. The lasting effect was that there was no way I'd ever own a clown doll, I wouldn't have the room with the view of the big freaking tree, and no way in HELL that closet door would even be cracked open. NO way NO how.
Here I find myself on my leather sofa, an adult, freaking out about things. But now there are tangible fears. Experiences that I've already faced. Fears that I've seen others go through, but this time could actually happen to me. There may not be a haunted closet to be sucked into, but there are equally horrific plot twists.
Follistim works too hard, I hyperstimulate, cycle canceled.
Follistim may not be sufficient, I underproduce follicles.
They retrieve follicles, and few fertilize.
Many fertilize, but what few make it to day 3 arrest during biopsy.
We have a couple blasts at day 5 but none implant.
A blast implants, but betas do not double.
Betas double, but no heartbeat.
We see a heartbeat one time, then it disappears again like the last time.
...and so on.
I think I prefer the possessed clown in the haunted closet.
Ghosts.
Possessed dolls.
Haunted closets.
Intangible fears.
It was based on stuff I saw on a screen happening to someone else. The lasting effect was that there was no way I'd ever own a clown doll, I wouldn't have the room with the view of the big freaking tree, and no way in HELL that closet door would even be cracked open. NO way NO how.
Here I find myself on my leather sofa, an adult, freaking out about things. But now there are tangible fears. Experiences that I've already faced. Fears that I've seen others go through, but this time could actually happen to me. There may not be a haunted closet to be sucked into, but there are equally horrific plot twists.
Follistim works too hard, I hyperstimulate, cycle canceled.
Follistim may not be sufficient, I underproduce follicles.
They retrieve follicles, and few fertilize.
Many fertilize, but what few make it to day 3 arrest during biopsy.
We have a couple blasts at day 5 but none implant.
A blast implants, but betas do not double.
Betas double, but no heartbeat.
We see a heartbeat one time, then it disappears again like the last time.
...and so on.
I think I prefer the possessed clown in the haunted closet.
6 Comments:
I'm afraid of the dark and having a hysterectomy.
OMG..I am sorry, I don't mean to laugh but when I first read that I thought that instead of 'I think I prefer the possessed clown in the haunted closet.', it said: 'I think I prefer the assclowns in the haunted closet.' All I could think of was what are ASS CLOWNS doing in Ollies closet?
I am scared of clowns, circus', falling...umm...tidal waves and seafood.
I hope that you get your test results back soon and they are A-#1 ok!!! :P
Hysterectomies scare me too, Akeeyu.
Tiffanni, I think there are Assclowns in my haunted closet too. Telling me to relax and not think about things too much.
Right now, I'm paralyzed by the fear that when my polyp is removed it will be cancerous and I'll have to have a hysterectomy.
Oh, and clowns freak me the fuck out too. Remember the movie IT?
That the last 8.5 months of this High Risk pregnancy will have all be for naught and something horrific will happen and I will come home from the hospital empty handed again.
I try not to dwell on it, and think happy thoughts... but it's my biggest fear. That or something happening to me .. and leaving my husband and children alone.
Never been a big fan of clowns either. All of your fears are perfectly rational, considering what you are embarking on. I wish I could tell you that everything is going to be just fine, but dammit, I have misplaced my crystal ball again. Guess we'll all have to just work through this together.
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