Mon Corps est l'hôtesse d'une Fete de Bacterieres
If you are a fluent speaker of French, forgive my rusty translations. But "my body is playing hostess to a huge systemic e-coli infection" sounds far better in French. (Note: Thank you for the French correction, Anon.. most obliged.)
Could I just have a laparoscopy that was "normal"? No.
Could I have just gotten a normal bladder infection? No.
Could I have gone through that and actually had the answer to my woes? No to that one too.
To recap, last Wednesday, I had a setback. A urinary tract infection with bladder stones. I was fainting every time I peed. I peed in a cup for a urinalysis to check for bacteria. The post-op appointment was yesterday. I was already feeling very bad. Flu-like bad. Aches and fever, like my entire body was in trauma. The nurse said, "You are probably dehydrated." I knew that wasn't it.
Doc came in, said, "Yeah, you have a crazy mad systemic e-coli infection and it is completely resistant to the antibiotics you are on right now." And that's why I felt like I was dying. So I was given Cipro (you know, the drug made famous as the stuff they give Anthrax victims,) and told to double up on my acidophilus intake.
Did it end there? No, she kept talking.
She apologized for a misunderstanding. After the surgery, she had forgotten that I was a miscarriage patient, because when she sees THAT MUCH ENDOMETRIOSIS, it is almost always an infertility patient, so she told Brad, "I feel pretty confident that's what was causing the problem." Her idea of "problem" did not match OUR idea.
What I'm getting at is that I have not been cured. The endo did not cause my miscarriages, at all. Her best guess, given our history, Brad's stellar SCSA results, and the reason for our last loss---is that my eggs are shite.
We have 6 months, before the endo begins to return, to decide to do IVF with genetic testing of the embryos and then how to pay for it, or to hold our noses and dive into the genetic pool and take a chance with natural conception and see if we chose the lucky reproductive lottery numbers.
Ain't that a pickle!?
Could I just have a laparoscopy that was "normal"? No.
Could I have just gotten a normal bladder infection? No.
Could I have gone through that and actually had the answer to my woes? No to that one too.
To recap, last Wednesday, I had a setback. A urinary tract infection with bladder stones. I was fainting every time I peed. I peed in a cup for a urinalysis to check for bacteria. The post-op appointment was yesterday. I was already feeling very bad. Flu-like bad. Aches and fever, like my entire body was in trauma. The nurse said, "You are probably dehydrated." I knew that wasn't it.
Doc came in, said, "Yeah, you have a crazy mad systemic e-coli infection and it is completely resistant to the antibiotics you are on right now." And that's why I felt like I was dying. So I was given Cipro (you know, the drug made famous as the stuff they give Anthrax victims,) and told to double up on my acidophilus intake.
Did it end there? No, she kept talking.
She apologized for a misunderstanding. After the surgery, she had forgotten that I was a miscarriage patient, because when she sees THAT MUCH ENDOMETRIOSIS, it is almost always an infertility patient, so she told Brad, "I feel pretty confident that's what was causing the problem." Her idea of "problem" did not match OUR idea.
What I'm getting at is that I have not been cured. The endo did not cause my miscarriages, at all. Her best guess, given our history, Brad's stellar SCSA results, and the reason for our last loss---is that my eggs are shite.
We have 6 months, before the endo begins to return, to decide to do IVF with genetic testing of the embryos and then how to pay for it, or to hold our noses and dive into the genetic pool and take a chance with natural conception and see if we chose the lucky reproductive lottery numbers.
Ain't that a pickle!?
14 Comments:
My fucking God! I'm so sorry!
6 months they say? Go big guns and IVF/PGD it. You won't regret that, but you may regret NOT doing that.
Hugs to you my e-coli ridden friend.
Jen/VintageUterus
Mon Corps est l'hotesse d'une Fete de Bacterieres.
This would be the correct version of your title in French. :)
Sorry to hear this news. :(
Well...so much for '05 bringing good news. I guess we still have 11 months to turn that shit around though, right?! I am sorry that there was confusion with the dr...but at least you got the endo cleaned up and have a tentative plan to move ahead..I am sorry that it's such an evasive plan, but it's SOMETHING at least.
((HUGS))
I don't know if you've realized it but you've had a really rough go it lately. I mean your trophy is way cool but still.
Wavery
I hope you feel better soon.
Roxanna
Merdre!
Mon Dieu!
That sucks! Cipro sucks. Been there, done that. Nasty.
I'm hoping for a miracle. Okay, I already hate myself for saying that, but it stands.
You've got to be kidding!!! Un%$*@#ing believable! I'm with anonymous....if you can swing it, go for the IVF w/PGD. It may be time to bring out the big guns. Afterall, you know how lucky we've all been with the reproductive lottery!
Ohhhhhh. Well, if I could share some of my lottery results, I would, I really would. There is a chance you'll find your perfect egg, but IVF/PGD may be the quicker route. Or not. But it will be informative (can you affort $10,000 worth of information?). It is worth it. I do not regret for a minute doing the IVF/PGD. You might want to look into some of the 3+ tries and baby guarantee programs out there. Our clinic just moved to a try until you drop and baby guarantee schema (it used to be 3 or 4 tries).
Your house must have appreciated over the last year ... That is a good source of money quick!! Ah, inflation.
Evelin
Oh man, that's sucks major donkey balls. I will say though, that I don't know if I would say your eggs are crap because you are still young enough that statistics are on your side. I will say though, that I WOULD do IVF as quickly as possible because you're up against a clock before the endo returns, which DOES cause major problems. I hate this crap. It's so damn unfair.
Thinking of you.
xxoo,
Emily
I'm sorry. Thinking of you.
Holy crap! Does it ever end? I'm so sorry, my friend. I'm crossing my fingers that things will get better for you. Soon!
Danae
e-coli?? Holy flesh-eating viruses, Batman. I am usually the queen of shitty luck, but I'm passing the crown to you on this one Ollie. I'm sorry. I'm sorry I have to keep saying I'm sorry.
If your endo is gonna come back within 6 months, I'm with the others...get thee to a loan officer, use that real estate equity and go forward with IVF/PGD and procreate, my sister.
Holy crap...talk about shitty things happening to a good person.
I know I don't have a say, but I vote for IVF w/PGD. To bad you aren't near Charlotte, NC. There is a clinic there that does IVF and they have a sort of money back guarantee...bring a live baby home from the hospital or get 70% of the cost of the IVF refunded to you.
Jeez!!! How horrible! I am so sorry that you are having such a hard time....
How in the world can they tell that the endo didn't cause your m/c's and why did you need the surgery if that wasn't the problem... I *think* I know the answer... (Because the endo *might* have been keeping you from getting pregnant again???) You know that I am trying to decided the "to lap or not to lap" question... This just sounds awful...
I am praying for you today. I am so sorry that you are having to deal with this crap!
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