My 33rd Cycle
How interesting. The month I turn 33 coincides with our 33rd cycle since we began that cheeky little acronyn, TTC (it's actually nearing anacronym status, because to be honest, I am forgetting what those letters actually stand for.. trying... to?... ummm.. sorry, nope, the C means nothing to me. C... cope? cooperate? copulate? conjugate?)
So I stopped BCPs (another acronym/anacronym conversion) on August 31. My moods sucked, no one liked the BCP Me. I am a happier, less moody, less volatile human these days.
B-B-But....
I am also eyeing the OPK's and the BBT (more acronyms)...
I may get pregnant, which means I could suffer a nearly immediate pregnancy loss as a result.
Here's the equation:
x²=me xy=Brad
x²+xy=pregnancy
If x=0 or y=0, pregnancy=pregnancy loss
x=0 and y=0, so
x²+xy=pregnancy
0²+0=me crying in the shower stall
So far, x and y always =0 and I've never had my body prove that theorem false. But the sado-masochistic part of my brain can't seem to help it. It's pathetic. I should be happy knowing I am not about to suffer the intense emotional trauma of an embryo without hope.
I haven't even had my explorative hysteroscopy yet. I must resist. Right?
So I stopped BCPs (another acronym/anacronym conversion) on August 31. My moods sucked, no one liked the BCP Me. I am a happier, less moody, less volatile human these days.
B-B-But....
I am also eyeing the OPK's and the BBT (more acronyms)...
I may get pregnant, which means I could suffer a nearly immediate pregnancy loss as a result.
Here's the equation:
x²=me xy=Brad
x²+xy=pregnancy
If x=0 or y=0, pregnancy=pregnancy loss
x=0 and y=0, so
x²+xy=pregnancy
0²+0=me crying in the shower stall
So far, x and y always =0 and I've never had my body prove that theorem false. But the sado-masochistic part of my brain can't seem to help it. It's pathetic. I should be happy knowing I am not about to suffer the intense emotional trauma of an embryo without hope.
I haven't even had my explorative hysteroscopy yet. I must resist. Right?
6 Comments:
Ok..now that is a little odd...33 & 33. Hmmm.
When are you gonna schedule the surgery girlie? Glad you went off the pill. No sense in making yourself more miserable. Damn pills anyway!!!
I think the time is nigh to schedule the hysteroscopy. Before my urges get the better of me.
Just offering you some cyber (((HUGS)))
Birth control pills be damned. As for the 33, I do believe you've discovered the mystery of the Rolling Rock "33". Way to go!!!
Thinking about you and your surgery...
Sherry
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You math wiz! I was wondering how on earth you could have an OPK and not even consider using it for its intended purpose. I couldn't do it. I recommend resisting but I know what I'd do... Maybe if you can get the hysteroscopy scheduled it will help you resist...
Hugs to you - Kym
Hi sweetie,
I had EVERY intention of saying happy birthday on the 10th. Every intention. But Celeste and Carter & I were back at the hospital under the bilirubin lights and I'm sorry to say I forgot all about it. But, my best wishes now for a great year.
Evelin
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